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I almost did it today

I'm torn in half.
I don't, know, what, to, do.
I can't vent anywhere but here. I'm too god damned paranoid.
My skin's fucking crawling and I'm ready to start cutting pieces out of my chest.
Just flip me upside down and unscrew my head - pour it all out, nothing's good in there.
None of it flows.
I think I'm going to puke.

I traded my love for empty security.

Maybe I'll post my suicide note here.
Nobody comes here anyways.
I am alone and that's how it will always be.

A man died in my arms today.

I don't know how I feel.

Sorry I couldn't save you.

This is one of my only safe places anymore.
I don't know what to do.

I can't cry myself to sleep anymore.
I want to stay away from what brought me down in the past, but I'm so sick of living this way.
What do I do?

I'm stuck in a loop and I don't see any way out.
That's not true.
There's always ways out.
I just
nevermind.